Why do we celebrate Birthday's? To remind us of how we messed up, from bad to worse since last year.

 

No, I'm not moving at least yet, nor did I give up my life, and it's depheete's as well success's but, sitch is, I wonder why we celebrate our birthday's? Is it really a reminder of the bunch of crap you experienced over the year, since last year at the same time. For me, I do a self-inventory. Not only from last year but over many years. Relationships that were both of outside our pervou but from our own doings. Called Lady Erin, and spoke on what she meant to me. The result is that chapter of my life's book naw shit, not just chapter but the whole book of my life's book, is now over. Yes Miss Toew Smooch and all, is history. We remain distant friends, but I feel so shitty since I gave up all that I had in Etown, for. First, it was Ron, then Apache Rick, then it was the crap in Wendell, then it was Jerome, which as it would be that I finally was one more foot out of this side of Idaho, yet Charlie passed away, so I remained here, and have went through so much manure, that I feel like I'm deep in it in a stockyard. But I too, right before I relocated from Etown, that, I was trying to eek, out a hydraulic failure, when she called. Yup Erin. She said she needed me so badly, said there might be a chance for her and I, and so on. All while seeing and being married. Not Knytes and more over WolfPack loyalty, honesty, nor. The every once in awhile, coffee clutches, and all were for what? Thing was or is Not only did I have to drown, a relationship, friendship, but terminate her membership in the Knytes, and separation, from the WolfPack. After I got through with my self-pity, session, I grabbed my brain and let it drain. Came up with the conclusion, that with everything as it is, might be time to evaluate the sitch, here. The conclusion is, we as an organization, is doing everything right, for the right reasons, just in the wrong place. And all my sacrifices even leaning again on the Erin thing, its why the hell did I move here? More-over, why am I still here? Upgrading my flight creds is the path to that remedy to the Malady. New eppy, this evening.